Normal

Writing all of this on paper (or in this case iPad) gets the crazy out...usually.  Not today.  I know that this too will pass, normal will find me again because obviously I am not able to find him.  Yes, normal is a 'he'.

I find myself reading, researching and listening to pod casts about heroin addiction, people who have come thru it from the bowels of hell and now have jobs, families, etc. Normal.  I am pretty sure we have tried all of the different methods out there and if a new one comes out, I will read/listen to that one as well. Hoping that one will hold the answer.

It really sucks to not have patience. Today, more than most I want that 'normal' now, I want it more than anything else in life.

I hate how TV shows glamorize drug use/addiction/recovery. They make it look like it's all so easy, that things magically get better overnight. They don't.

Here's a thought:  What if instead of giving out clean needles to addicts, they gave out that sub-dermal implant that takes away heroin cravings for up to 6 months at time? Would it help people help quit heroin for good (especially if refills were free too)?  Would it also stop some of the violent crimes out there? Would it help people get off the streets because now they would be clean and productive?  What about insurance companies?  Would the expense of continuous rehab be cut down?  Would gangs stop killing each other and innocent people over their drug turf as nobody would want the drugs anymore?  Ok, I guess that was more than just "a" thought. But maybe like TV....if I wish really hard....

Yeah, probably not.