Thank you.

To the paramedics who saved my son's life: thank you.  I know words aren't enough to express my gratitude and there will never be a day that goes by that I don't say a prayer for you, for the person who made the call, for my son. I don't know who you are or who called you but I will be forever grateful to all of you.  Unfortunately my son's "accident" was self inflicted.  He was on a commuter train one evening a little more than a week ago...he OD'd on heroin and was out cold.  He woke up to several fire personnel hovering over him after lying lifeless in the rear of the train. You had just given him Narcan. YOU brought him back from the brink of death and saved his life.  He refused to go to the hospital but did decide to seek help on his own, to find a facility that would take him in and help him get clean.  Unfortunately, he didn't have a cell phone so he ended up in a park bumming the use of a phone off of some partiers. He made a phone call to a number that had been given to him by someone who promised help.

My son is currently in a facility helping him get clean.  I pray every day that this time it will work...I visualize Jesus wrapping his arms around my son giving him strength. Strength to combat this horrible disease. You see, I have forced, begged and threatened him to no avail.  His friends have done the same.  We have flown up and down the state, back and forth across the country to one facility or another to no avail.  I finally had to let go and let my son take the reigns. He had to be the one to make the decision to want to be clean. No help from me, no help from his friends. Don't get me wrong, we all will be right there with support but it has to be all him wanting this as much as I and his friends do.  I pray this was the wake up call he needed to stay on track.

I love my son beyond words, I don't want him to die. I want him to live. Live to be happy. Live to be healthy. Live.

So, thank you. If I could give you all a hug, I would.

This is not a post for sympathy, this is a post only to express my gratitude.  #ThisIsHeroin