Goodbye.

Today is Mother’s Day.  Today my son has 400 days clean.  I want more than anything to never have to restart that clock. THAT is not up to me and completely out of my control. I am still learning how how to come to terms with that. Addiction not only affects the addict, but everyone who loves them.  I still have feelings of fear when he doesn’t answer the phone....those fears are slowly starting to fade. 

I hope in my heart of hearts to never come back here. This is where I released and kept the ugly. Today I am closing the lid....never wanting to open it again.

I will always pray for strength. For me. For my son. For my family. For those going thru the hell of addiction. For those in recovery. 

Prayers.